I'm going to say I start writing about the blog itself. I titled this "Onward, Ever Onward" because that is the direction that I want to move in, and the phrase comes from an LDS hymn. I like this reminder, especially now, because there are so many forces that pull us forward and backward, or even sideways. It is good to be aware of these forces, and with this knowledge to adjust accordingly. Regret has a powerful pull, and Heaven knows I have plenty of that right now. I usually have a small amount of regret any time of the day. Wah-wah. Pessimism. Sin. Plenty of that, too. Over-analyzing is a big one for me. Thanks to my very wise friend Mr. Therapy Man (that'll suffice for now), I have become much more able to combat this one. This one has caused me a great amount of grief, and it teamed up with the other negative forces to freeze me in place or drag me backward a little, which has lost me so much time and a couple relationships. Addiction and bad habits. Two huge forces in my life, which I am making real progress against now, at last.
Blah, blah, blah. Negative forces, evil things. Good to understand. Not the best to study.
I wanted to get all those out of the way. To be honest, those are the first forces I think of. Now we can move to the good ones. Gratitude. Service. Love. Love. Love is an incredible, powerful force for good. True love of worthwhile things, of good people. Love from people. We have hope, faith, and every good thing "which inviteth and enticeth to do good continually ... to love God, and to serve him ... and [persuades us] to believe in Christ."
(Quick side note: I will quote scriptures from The Book of Mormon: Another Testament of Jesus Christ in this blog. I will also speak of my beliefs often.)
There are forces that want to pull us backward and forces that want to pull us forward. They are like... ropes that we can twine around ourselves, or grab onto. Those negative forces often twine around us without our knowing, or at least without our knowing how serious this is, to be wrapped in these things. The good forces can twine around us also. This twining takes time. In the case of the good forces, the good ties that bind, it takes some focus. The negative forces are easy.
So, I have always had a desire to move onward, but this desire has gotten muddled and foiled many times by negative forces that I was not aware of, or more often did not care about. I hope this blog can serve as a springboard for ideas, for comments that will help us all understand more the forces of Good and Evil, God and Satan. The shoulder-devil and the shoulder-angel, if you will! Of course, not all of my posts will be this heavy and introspective and all that. Yuck. On that note...
There is much to be said for laughter, and for simplicity. If you consider all that stuff about good and evil forces to be complicated and weird, good for you! That's just fine! At times I have trouble knowing when I have over-analyzed something uselessly. With some things, I just need to stop thinking and move toward good things, believe and then go.
Well, that was a fun experiment in rambling! I could edit this blog post for clarity and focus and organization, but I'll just give you unedited Adam. I hope it was illuminating in some way, or that you liked my funny picture. If you ever want to talk, ever want someone to talk to, please contact me. Yes, you, reader, whoever you might be. (If we're already friends, excellent. Contact me anyway!)We're all moving through life on our journeys, and I believe we are all connected. Isn't it just great to talk to other people about just anything? Ah, people. I love 'em. And kids; little people are my favorite. That may just be the next topic of my blog: how wonderful children are.
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